Can't get to sleep so decide to post.

I noticed I recently have been a part of the world that suffers from everyday situations. I don't know what had gotten into me, but I just know that I'm still the same old person.

I miss her. I'm here and she's ten thousand miles away from me. If only I could tell her face to face that I like her, but neither do I have the guts to do it. What I fear most is really coming to me. The fear of being lonely and the fear of losing people I love is really a depressing issue I really need to deal with.

What is done is done, there is no turning back. Only thing I can do now is to hope for the future and forget the past.

Some say I'm an idiot, being a great person is not about having the biggest heart, to me being a great person is being who I really am. People look up to me, people find me to be a motivation to them, yet some flaws of me are hated by others.

What really matters in the end is I do enjoy being a person that make other people happy and keep them happy always. That's me.

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Is it better to be feared or respected? I say "Is a bit too much to ask for both?"

-Tony Stark, Iron Man

To me it's the thoughts that counts!

Had a roaring day doing my duties for the nation. Whole uniform was full of my sweat! Ha ha.

Enjoyed the fireworks and the Air Shows! Oh, can't forget the Red Lions too.

The day started off with me waking up with a fresh face, full of energy to go and fulfill my duties, eventually I was there before I knew it. Was out in the sun for at least three hours, damn I'm darker than black already! Ha ha. I saw my secondary schools teacher, Mr Seow. Chat with him for sometime, well it really bring back memories of me being in NPCC. Ha ha.

Well I'm kinda happy that throughout these 45 years, Singapore had strive hard to become what she is today. We have to thank out forefathers like our Minister Mentor, Mr Lee Kuan Yew. Without him, Singapore would not be what we see today. Although we have achieved so much, yet Singapore has never gave up on developing more, this little red dot has made it's mark on the world map and everybody knows Singapore is a great city and a place to call home.

Headed back home after my duties, met up with my sister at Yew Tee MRT, bought some drinks and headed home, need to wake up early to help with my dad's work tomorrow. Whew, busy week I should say. Ha ha.

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Wish she was here with me watching the fireworks!

Happy 45th Birthday Singapore!

Here we are again, having a nice night for a nice new blog entry straight after book out.

So NDP is coming soon, kinda looking forward to my duties. Love it when it comes to this day as everyone of us Singaporean recognize our achievement we have and the pride of our motherland. Even friends who are overseas like my good friend Joyce, she's celebrating it over at Australia. Although the grass may be greener on the other side but we know where we truly belong.

Even though I've lost something dear to me, I've gain more new ideas and freedom to work with. People asked me if i hated her? Yes I do, I'm kinda pissed off when people misunderstand my intentions and chose to start a stupid war with me. I'm never really a good guy in the first place, well who is? Ha ha.

I've been thinking a lot lately, should i continue to search for my cup of tea? Well I've already found one, and things are going smooth between me and her. I'll not repeat the same mistakes as what I've used to commit. This time round I'll definitely cherish her whole heartedly and love as if my life depends on it.

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NDP is like a stone throw away, my wish for Singapore is to make sure she has the best kick boxers in the world.

I'm interested in her but I wonder how she feels about me? Oh God give me a sign man!