Came across my abandoned blog today, seeing that it's already extinct so I'm trying to bring it to life again.

For 4 months, I've been living my life away from the virtual world and facing reality like as if I'm a immortal, having no fear of death or whatsoever. Learning about things which can be painful and thoughtful, I've learned a great deal about myself and the world that is breathing right now.

Just completed a major event in the army, left with 5 more months to my so called freedom and yet I still enjoy being in the goverment sector. Will be planning to join the police force after I ORD, serving the citizens and upholding the law has always been a ambition of mine.

Many people asked me "Eh Justin! When are you gonna get yourself a girlfriend?" I just say to them "Till the day some girl comes up to me with a sincere heart and look at me and say, Justin I like you for who you are." That will be the day I say I have a solid girlfriend. Although granny have been wanting me to settle down and be a good grandson and all, I can tell she's living her every second hoping to carry her one and only great grandchildren. Granny is already 76 this year, really hope she can live long enough to carry her great grandchildren.

Having a bad toothache! Hurts so badly that even panadol don't work at all. Had to go to the doctor to get the extra strong painkillers and he also gave me an antiseptic mouthwash to prevent the bacteria from infecting my affected tooth. So gonna find the MO on tuesday and get a dental appointment fixed and get it done once and for all!

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This life of mine is one hell of a ride, not giving has always been the best options I've chosen all the time.

Can't get to sleep so decide to post.

I noticed I recently have been a part of the world that suffers from everyday situations. I don't know what had gotten into me, but I just know that I'm still the same old person.

I miss her. I'm here and she's ten thousand miles away from me. If only I could tell her face to face that I like her, but neither do I have the guts to do it. What I fear most is really coming to me. The fear of being lonely and the fear of losing people I love is really a depressing issue I really need to deal with.

What is done is done, there is no turning back. Only thing I can do now is to hope for the future and forget the past.

Some say I'm an idiot, being a great person is not about having the biggest heart, to me being a great person is being who I really am. People look up to me, people find me to be a motivation to them, yet some flaws of me are hated by others.

What really matters in the end is I do enjoy being a person that make other people happy and keep them happy always. That's me.

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Is it better to be feared or respected? I say "Is a bit too much to ask for both?"

-Tony Stark, Iron Man

To me it's the thoughts that counts!

Had a roaring day doing my duties for the nation. Whole uniform was full of my sweat! Ha ha.

Enjoyed the fireworks and the Air Shows! Oh, can't forget the Red Lions too.

The day started off with me waking up with a fresh face, full of energy to go and fulfill my duties, eventually I was there before I knew it. Was out in the sun for at least three hours, damn I'm darker than black already! Ha ha. I saw my secondary schools teacher, Mr Seow. Chat with him for sometime, well it really bring back memories of me being in NPCC. Ha ha.

Well I'm kinda happy that throughout these 45 years, Singapore had strive hard to become what she is today. We have to thank out forefathers like our Minister Mentor, Mr Lee Kuan Yew. Without him, Singapore would not be what we see today. Although we have achieved so much, yet Singapore has never gave up on developing more, this little red dot has made it's mark on the world map and everybody knows Singapore is a great city and a place to call home.

Headed back home after my duties, met up with my sister at Yew Tee MRT, bought some drinks and headed home, need to wake up early to help with my dad's work tomorrow. Whew, busy week I should say. Ha ha.

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Wish she was here with me watching the fireworks!

Happy 45th Birthday Singapore!

Here we are again, having a nice night for a nice new blog entry straight after book out.

So NDP is coming soon, kinda looking forward to my duties. Love it when it comes to this day as everyone of us Singaporean recognize our achievement we have and the pride of our motherland. Even friends who are overseas like my good friend Joyce, she's celebrating it over at Australia. Although the grass may be greener on the other side but we know where we truly belong.

Even though I've lost something dear to me, I've gain more new ideas and freedom to work with. People asked me if i hated her? Yes I do, I'm kinda pissed off when people misunderstand my intentions and chose to start a stupid war with me. I'm never really a good guy in the first place, well who is? Ha ha.

I've been thinking a lot lately, should i continue to search for my cup of tea? Well I've already found one, and things are going smooth between me and her. I'll not repeat the same mistakes as what I've used to commit. This time round I'll definitely cherish her whole heartedly and love as if my life depends on it.

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NDP is like a stone throw away, my wish for Singapore is to make sure she has the best kick boxers in the world.

I'm interested in her but I wonder how she feels about me? Oh God give me a sign man!

I had my BTT today!

Was nervous at first but hey guess what? I passed. Wow I'm such a good shit after all. Hahaz.

Lots has happened ever since my last post. Been pretty busy keeping myself busy. Hahaz.

Feel that I could have achieved more in my life by being a responsible person but hey nobody gives a shit about second chance! I mean come on, I think everyone deserves one. I'm planning to ill treat these people who don't give second chances!

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One step closer to my BTT!

To hate or to love?

Aww. Somebody asked me to update my blog a bit and so here I am.

Yes yes I know, my blog is rotting away badly and it's June already! Hahaz. Well guess I was too Lazy huh?

Anyway some updates in life, found a new love. Compared to you-know-who for crying out loud. Hahaz. Well some people just wanna bastard me. I shall not reveal the name but I can tell what went wrong actually.

Well the story goes like this:

I was hanging out with Antonio drinking bubble tea under a void deck (don't ask me what flavour was it), I suddenly thought of my Basic Theory Test that is gonna come in weeks time and on that day I'm having a important duty, so I sms-ed to confirm the date and time. And guess what that person actually bastard me, I'm fine with it and I just went BITCH in the text. Was laughing like f**k. Anyway I also don't care whether I hurt people or what, cause the main reason was I was the one being hurt first. That person can find anyone to come and take me down, I don't care cause most to most is I become a ghost and haunt whoever took me down and the one who ask the one to take me down (Hey but will I become a ghost when I die?).

Anyway life's been great for me so far, with my new life and achievements, and I really gotta set some standards for myself already, gonna turn 21 soon (and my organs are used for transplant after I die!), so it's like I've gotta really work hard.

Intend to join the SPF after I ORD, some jokers said "Why not be a terrorist? They'll pay you damn lots." And another adds in "Be a mercenary, it's better as you get paid damn lots as you don't come cheap." I replied "Eh you think I got so cheap arhz?" Hahaz.

Well it's another day for work and fun, still thinking which song to embed on my Blog man.

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Whew, finally having the room to breathe! Stomping out on cigarettes!

Having a damn bad cough. Coughing away like it's free!

Stayed at home most of the day except to bring my sister out of the house for lunch. Had LJS, tried the Land and Sea Combo. Was good I tell ya!

Got back home and played com all day and cough happily away. Damn.

Had dinner with dad. Kept coughing and coughing throughout the whole dinner.

Went out of the house at 12mid to get some cough medicine. Drank it and off to sleep I go. *Zzz*

Still need to go to Brunei though.

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Cough cough go away come back another day! I WANT TO GO BRUNEI AND CONQUER MOUNT BIANG!!!